No no don’t apologize! Sweetie, she’s wrong to tell you off. Crying is a bodily reaction- not something you can control- and if it was her that made you cry, she’s probably feeling guilty and doesn’t want the evidence that she’s hurting you in front of her. That’s her own selfishness, not you.
And you’re not a failure. ‘Failures’ are people who give up, and stop reaching out for help, and assume that they’re not worth anything. You’re reaching out because you know you’re worth more than that, because every person, with their capabilities of kindness and compassion and bravery and understanding- are worth something. I’m sure you’re pretty amazing, and are very important to a lot of people.
I hope I helped, and if I did drop me a message whenever you want, anon xxx